Ah, so, am back with the whole relationship stuff again and am exploring a whole new concept.(purely fictional)
The pay as you go concept. i mean, we all love to be in a relationship or not. depends really on what you consider a relationship. I have had most of them though and really, when all is said and done, i believe that, as well informed as i am on some aspects of the game, i am completely naive in others.
This brings me back to the title of this blog today. Exactly what is a pay as you go relationship? i actually had this idea when i was having a chat with a good friend of mine. he wanted to know why i always say i do not want a relationship so, i told him the truth. i like the pay as you go kind. Now, don't get me wrong, i am not opposed to the whole finding someone who is meant for you and living happily ever after crap but, honestly, at this stage in my life, i couldn't really be bothered to even think about settling down with what is not meant to be so, i decided; i like men. (obviously). men are more trouble than they are worth most often than not and really, why should i give all of this to one person just so they can take the piss when they feel like it? (am not cynical i swear). Therefore, i came to understand that, in order to keep everyone happy? i am not doing the whole, am in this with you stuff. its strictly pay as you go.
Now, before you get your pants in a twist, what this means is that, i want to be with someone or some people (although, not at the same time). I just don't want to have to feel the need to be tied down to anyone. i don't have the patience to think about anything or anyone else but myself. Like i said to that really annoying guy on the phone when he asked me why i stood him up, i am just not used to thinking about other people. i love me first. i love you a bit when you are here but when you are not, i either top up or, go to a different network. (ah, pay as you go).
I want to be able to have freedom to do the things i really want to do anytime i feel like without having to answer to someone. I would really love it if i got a phone call from someone who's first question is not going to be 'where are you?' or, 'what are you doing?'. Dude, you are not my mother. i hate to have someone make me feel like they own me. therefore. here is my proposal: Let's be happy when we are happy. (that is when i see you) Don't please bug me with your jealousy and really really, do not feel the need to tell me how precious or enchanting or beautiful i am! (i have a mirror for that). See, if we signed a contract, ie, in a relationship, you will be obligated to do those but, this is a pay as you go relationship and to be honest, there has been a few people before you telling me all those things that you tell me and after a while, it gets kinda old u know?
That is all am rambling about tonight since i can't seem to get any sleep and i know am probably not making any sense at all....... *big grin on my face*
